OBVI… I’ve kind of failed.
I will be damn, completely F******* straight with you in that I have 100% FAILED to stay on plan.
Like completely failed.
Today I had a brownie, a Rice Krispie treat, a McDonald’s breakfast sandwich and some chicken alfredo.
Do I feel bad about it? I mean, kinda.
Okay, since we are being honest, I’m beating myself to a pulp over my lack of all the things as of late.
Let’s start with the positives before I get down and dirty about my habits.
- I am officially a face painter! I’ve performed five shows in the past week and painted about 200 adorable kids faces with the likes of Batman, Pokemon balls, butterflies, hearts, unicorns and gotten a smile every time! It’s been an incredibly rewarding thing and I’m learning more every single time. (Side note: I now want ALL THE COLORS)
- I am doing amazing at my job as a marketing strategist. I helped design a $50K launch ($32K of that was in ONE DAY) and continue to blow my bosses minds with creative ideas and kickass webinars and presentations. They want to move me to salary!
- My boyfriend is amazing.
- I have been able to pay all my bills every month and come home to an awesome apartment with the perfect kitten 🙂
Life is amazing. Yes.
But, I’m also human and to top it all off, I’m a woman. So OF COURSE I have come to the conclusion that none of this matters because I’m about 50 lbs overweight and I have done absolutely nothing to improve that situation.
I feel gross. My clothes don’t fit and I have zero to no energy. Side note: Zero to no energy equals out to zero to no sex drive 😦
Here’s a question for all you awesome readers out there: How do you “get in the mood” if you will, when you don’t feel sexy yourself? I adore my boyfriend and want to make him happy, but I can’t bring myself to feel sexy enough to want to play.
I want to like myself in pictures again. I want to feel motivated. I want to eat healthy.
Why is this so hard?
This is a short post to an extent and honestly, probably not a productive one for your day. If anything, I have to say this: Keep going and keep trucking. That’s my advice.
Now I want yours!
How do you amazing and beautiful curvy girls stay confident? I envy your amazing attitudes.